When I was pregnant with my last baby I was filled with all these hopes, dreams, and plans of what I was going to do during my pregnancy. Unfortunately, we lost that baby. When I got pregnant with this baby, although I was super excited, I was more hesitant about getting too excited until I knew things looked good. Once we were in the clear and we were sure the baby was doing good, growing, and thriving perfectly, I once again started thinking about all the things I wanted to do during this pregnancy. But my pregnancy plans did not go as planned.
I planned on documenting the whole thing, I was going to be super healthy by eating clean and exercising, I expected I was going to look and feel great, and I was going to be a glowing pregnant goddess… Well, you know what, I do NOT feel that way nor did I accomplish anything I wanted to do.
I felt so disappointed by this, especially when I would go on social media. I come across these beautiful pregnant women on social media who are in the most adorable maternity outfits, showing off the latest baby paraphernalia they just acquired, and/or sharing their pregnancy milestones with those darn cute photo props, all while looking totally refreshed. My reality was the complete opposite it seemed. Then I had to check myself…
First and foremost, I needed to stop comparing myself to other women. Just because my pregnant body doesn’t look like some of these other women doesn’t mean my body isn’t gorgeous too. My body is just as amazing as any other woman who is creating life, no matter the size or shape. Because I may not feel as great as other women look doesn’t make my pregnancy any less special either.
One of the reasons why I was unable to follow through with a lot of plans is simply LIFE. We sold our home and moved, we are a homeschooling family, and I already have 5 kids. I don’t have time to obsess over my pregnancy and do all these projects. And you know what, that doesn’t mean I’m a bad mom. I need to take a breather and realize that me dealing with other pressing matters in my life right now is okay.
To be honest, I don’t Actually Enjoy Pregnancy
Don’t get me wrong, I am extremely grateful to be able to have life within me. There is a great joy and excitement from being pregnant but I don’t like being pregnant. This pregnancy, in general, was my roughest pregnancy I’ve had. I had really bad morning sickness on top of being overly stressed from selling our home and moving. I think because of my lack of enjoying pregnancy is why I feel the need to make all these plans. It does help me bond with baby. I had to realize that it’s okay to not like pregnancy while at the same time recognizing the joy in it as well.
Trust in God & Be Thankful
I had all these plans and expectations for my pregnancy that did not go accordingly and I had to realize that God had other things planned for me during this time of life instead. I needed to surrender to Him. He is in control, not me. He also will give me strength in my troubles. I also need to be grateful. This is not always the easiest for me because admittedly I can be a bit of a pessimistic. I need to start looking at things with a more grateful and humbling view.
“I can do all things through him who strengthens me.”
“And do not be grieved, for the joy of the Lord is your strength.”
– Nehemiah 8:10
Have you experienced disappointment during your pregnancy? How have you handled it? Comment below, it would be great to hear advice from other mommies!